Lessons From My Ancestors
Updated: Apr 22, 2022
A month ago, I was at the eye doctor receiving my normal, routine checkup. My optometrist, who is also a good friend, informed me that my vision had decreased to 20/30 vision since my last checkup. He also had shown me a cluster of micro cysts, little pockets of inflammation, all throughout my left eye ball.
My friend honestly told me, "Kelsey, this isn't normal for a healthy woman in her 30s. If this doesn't improve in the next 30 days, we're going to have to order an MRI test." He instructed me to limit my contact lens use and sent me on my way.
Well, naturally, as a healer, I wanted to do everything in my power to ensure that the micro cysts were gone by the time I went to my next appointment. I took matters into my own hands. Of course, I did listen to the doctor and drastically limited the amount of time my contacts were in, but I also decided to connect with the micro cysts themselves and figure out how to help them heal.
Journey to the Cysts
One of my mentors, Jenny, suggested that I journey directly to the cysts and ask them what they needed to be released from my body. As I closed my eyes one afternoon, I saw a miniature version of myself standing in my own eyeball face-to-face with the cysts. I intuitively began to hold my hands over the cysts and watched as golden light began pouring from my hands and into the space. In this moment, I had nothing but love and gratitude for my eyes. They were showing me something that I hadn't previously been able to see.
As I made connection with the cysts, I began to ask them what they needed to move out of my form. They showed me a red, flaming, fiery Sun. To me, fire and the Sun are symbols of the Ancestors. I was being shown that the female Ancestors in my bloodline were needing me to heal from something. I've learned over the years that when we heal ourselves, our entire bloodline heals.
But, that wasn't all! The cysts showed me that my Soul also had a line of ancient Ancestors standing behind me, that were wanting to connect with me and pass on wisdom. These Ancestors were different from my physical bloodline Ancestors. They were very old, wise Ancestors that had been guiding my Soul throughout many lifetimes. Again, they all appeared female, which was no surprise to me, considering all of my eye troubles were on my left side - the side of the body that represents the feminine, receptive side.
I asked the cysts, "If I do this work with these Ancestors, will you leave my form? Will you restore my vision?" The cysts replied in unison, "Yes. Once the work is complete, all of us will leave." They thanked me for loving them and for showing them compassion. They said, "We just wanted you to SEE that there's work to be done. We needed to get your attention." I blessed the cysts and thanked them.
My Encounter with the Bloodline Ancestors
A few days later I asked to be shown my female line of Ancestors. I was taken into a cave and watched as seven figures walked in. When I've worked with the Ancestors before, I've also seen the number seven. Some ancient teachings have believed that what we do in this lifetime has a direct affect on the seven generations before us and the seven generations after us.
As my Ancestors walked in, they formed a circle around a fire in the middle of the cave. They each wore a hooded cloak and were completely covered. Their light was dimmed by these long, black cloaks and their energy felt very diminished; weighed down by the darkness of their cloaks.
As I began to connect to them, they showed me images of the religious trauma, persecution and suppression that they had faced in their lives. For many of them, they never had felt it was safe to be seen and heard in this world. They were still carrying burdens, fear, shame and doubt and they showed me the ways in which these unhealed inhibitions were passed on to me and my own daughter.
Some of my recent Ancestors had been taught that it was sinful to speak their truth. They were taught to give their power away to a male authority and other religious figures. They were taught that God was somehow outside and above them, making them feel small and insignificant. Generation after generation, they were showing me that they had been stripped of their power and taught to give it over to the men, the priests, and the patriarchy. If they had any connection to their own Divine inner power, they were taught to suppress it.
As I addressed my grandmothers, I said, "The time has come for all of this to end. I cannot properly do what I came here to do in this lifetime with all of these burdens and outdated beliefs weighing me down. I will not carry them anymore." I asked each of them to release their burdens, not only for themselves, but for me, my daughter and future generations. "Will you do that for us?", I lovingly asked.
Slowly and surely, I watched as each one of my Ancestors began to remove their cloaks and release them into the fire. As I watched this, a magnificent light began to radiate from each of their heart centers, filling the room up with exquisite colors and an empowering energy.
I looked down at myself, and realized that, I too, was wearing a cloak. All seven of the women gathered around me and each of them placed a hand on my cloak. They helped pull it off of me and placed it in the fire. Together, we celebrated our newfound freedom. Together, we were birthing something new.
My Return to the Bloodline Ancestors
A week or so had passed, and I had the sense that this particular work with the Ancestors wasn't completely done, so I decided to return to the cave where I had previously met with them. As I walk into the cave again, I observed one of my family members curled up in a corner, still cloaked and diminished. Myself and the others stood around her in support. I watched as all of my grandmothers extended their hands over my relative and began to bless her. There was a stream of golden light pouring out of their hands and filling her up. It's similar to what I see happen in my own Shamanic healing sessions with clients. I silently wondered if I had received this ability from them.